Wow - a really really long time between posts! 15 months to be precise. I have now have a gorgeous daughter named Ginger. She is about 14 months old now and is just ace. I love her to bits. Lewis is nearly 4 years old now too. They are both adorable and love each other to bits. I really am quite blessed.
I've just been reading back through posts from 2012 - and particularly my posts about being pregnant. Sadly that pregnancy ended in a miscarriage (a rather horrific one too) at 12 weeks. Cue spiral into depression for me, but thankfully a few months later I got some counselling and then saw a fertility naturopath. Both the counsellor and naturopath were amazing. I cleaned up my life (quit stressful job) and diet (no coffee, booze etc) and 4 months later once we started trying again, got pregnant first attempt. And now we have the two.
I don't do pregnancy well and swore that I wouldn't consider having any more children after Ginger was out. However, as soon as she appeared I became super clucky and decided that we needed three! My partner agreed at the time and I have been happily going along (saving baby clothes etc) thinking there would eventually be another little bub in our brood.
However, the partner dropped the bombshell last week that he is done. He doesn't think he could cope with another baby. I'm still at a bit of a loss as to what to do - I'm not 100% sure that I do or don't want another... I agree it gets easier as they get older, but I also love that newborn stage.
Then there is the whole practicality of three children. We'd have to rethink car, future house size, the ability to travel easily. All do-able but probably harder with three kids.
Anyway, I still don't know what I really think. I think originally I was just wanting another baby so I could get another year off work! But I've now worked out a way to take next year off work anyway, so now can focus on what I really want...
I'll keep you posted!
