Lewis is nearly 10 months old and I have exactly 4 weeks left of maternity leave. I'm half dreading, half looking forward to returning to work. It's only part-time so I'm sure it'll be fine. It will be nice to use my brain again. I'm just not looking forward to the stress factor.
I have thoroughly enjoyed my 11 months off so far and feel incredibly lucky to have been able to spend so much quality time with Lewis, and get paid for it (my work has excellent maternity pay). My lifestyle is incredibly lazy at the moment and has been for the last 4-5 months.
Our average day consists of us sleeping in until 9.30am, then feeding and bathing Lewis and letting him play while I try to read the paper and eat breakfast. Then he has a morning nap about 11am, when I have a shower and do dishes, washing etc. When he wakes up, it's lunch time. After he has had food, we generally head out for a few hours for a walk and coffee, or to mothers group, or shopping, or to visit a friend etc. We are home by his dinner time (about 5pm). He generally goes to bed about 9pm, but he's pretty chirpy in the evenings so we have fun playing with him then.
So as you can see, my life is pretty cruisey. Which is why I am at a loss to explain why I'm currently feeling like I do. It's kind of like I'm bored, but I don't have time to do anything else. (Who knew kids were so good at sucking away time).
I think it's probably having no time to myself that has brought it on, as well as having too much of a good thing (ie. too much sleeping in, too many coffees/lunches out). Sitting in cafes used to be a special treat on weekends and holidays. Now I do it every day.
Going back to work 3 days a week will probably solve my 'problem'. I'm in a rut. I really don't know how women do it staying at home for years with the kids. I love Lewis but think I just need some space.
